Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Thanks to all who still visit and read old posts.
I come on blogger almost everyday and read other blogs but haven't felt compelled to write. Truthfully, I needed some time to focus on myself.
I really do love writing but sometimes it's really hard being open when you never know who'll be reading. But I'll be back soon.
Monday, September 24, 2012
my mama at 18.
I said that Mondays would be personal and “all about me”, so here goes.
But I’m afraid that this won’t be a cheery post.
my mom died when I was 11. a little girl. I had just started the 6th grade. she died in october 1999. I was told that over the years the loss would get better i.e. I’d be able to cope with it better. but quite frankly, it does NOT feel that way.
What I have realized is that after the initial shock and tears I became numb. some things happened that I didn’t like. and I realized even more how unconventional my mom was. and the more I missed her. I was also very angry and just didn’t want to deal with my emotions so I buried a lot of the pain.
I miss her so much sometimes that the intensity and sharpness of the grief can sometimes come in sudden outbursts. or it can be as a result of not having good days. those days when all you need is a mom. but I have no one. she isn't here. not physically anyway.
I realize that I am not paying much attention to grammar here, since the emotions are so raw.
this year I’ve decided that I would face the unpleasantness in my life in order to let the light in. but I realize that once the light comes I get sad. because I really just wish she would be here to experience the good with me.
I wish she could meet the love of my life. I wish she could meet my future children. but that wont happen. and then it makes me realize that as I get older the loss becomes more profound.
how do you cope with losing your hero? the one you had planned to repay and appreciate and love unconditionally for all the sacrifices she made?
most people who haven't lost a parent may not understand. but those of you who have will. especially all the girls/women who lost a mom, especially so young.
I don’t know what the point of this really is. but I just wanted you all to know how I am actually feeling AT THIS MOMENT.
and at this moment, I REALLY MISS MY MOM.
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
I promised I’d stick to my schedule. So here goes!
These are two (2) quick tips for acne. Well if you have blackheads/whiteheads or generally not too bad acne these should work for you.
From time to time, I may be in a pinch, as my acne product may have finished and I have to wait until payday to buy something new. But what do you do? You still have to treat it especially if you’re like me and you don’t want anymore breakouts.
Here are two (2) options:
- Toothpaste and Rubbing Alcohol
That’s the toothpaste and rubbing alcohol I have at the moment.
All you need is to wash your face and lightly dry it.
If you are using toothpaste do the following:
Place half a pea sized amount on your finger and dab on the pimples. Or, you can dab it on it and rub it as if you were moisturizing your face. Do not wash. Leave to dry and go to bed.
If you are using rubbing alcohol…
Wet a cotton ball or cotton pad with the alcohol and wipe over face or the areas with acne. This is your at home toner or astringent. Do not wash. Leave to dry and go to bed.
Please note: I recommend doing these options for about two (2) days. It can be used more but you have to be careful not to use too much or your face can become dry. As with any new acne treatment, you have to adjust it to your needs. I am recommending this, as both methods have worked for me.
Oh and if you’re pregnant, you can use these without fear of harming your child.
Comment and tell me if you’ve tried these options.
I can’t believe I haven’t posted since June!
But here I am:
That pic makes me laugh. I was mid-sentence when my boyfriend snapped me. That was taken after work on my birthday. Do you notice the movement in my hair? I’m REALLY animated when I talk. Most people say I’m dramatic . And I’ve not edited it one bit. That’s me at the end of the day. Cute. I know. LOL.
So what have I been up to?
Well, I moved in June, as I had informed you all. So now I live with my sister and her son; my cute 4yr old nephew who cracks me up daily.
I have really taken the period away from my blog to reflect and face things that I’ve buried for YEARS! I wasn’t totally gone, as I would answer comments and read blogs in the morning at work. But to be really dedicated I would have had to have internet service at home. And I didn’t. I waited until last week to get that done.
I broke up with my boyfriend of seven years in June and that affected me because it really triggered some pent up emotions. However, remember when I said I had met someone who inspires me to be better? That’s my new man, Garfield. I’m so in love and it FEELS RIGHT. More about that soon.
And of course, my birthday was in August. I’m now 24. Yikes!
But I really took this time to get settled into my new home and have been living a semi off the grid life.
I’ve also decided that in order for me to post on here more often going forward I will have to create a schedule. Which I did.
Here’s what I’ve come up with:
- Me Mondays: So I’ll give you a window into my personal life on Mondays. Let you all know more about me and what I’m up to. It could be anything from a random picture and quiz, to a weekend summary but the point is that you’ll learn about me.
- Tip Tuesdays: All about great tips for you. I plan to make it short tips that you can easily incorporate into your life.
- Beauty Wednesdays: That says it all. Reviews etc all surrounding hair, skincare and makeup.
- Random Thursdays: Anything goes here.
- Fashion Fridays: This may not be a weekly thing since I wear uniform to work but I’ll try to talk about fashion on this day. If it’s even posting about my current celebrity fashion faves.
- Saturday is undecided. Since I tend to run errands and laze about on Saturdays. But we’ll see what happens. I also tend to test products on Saturdays. Maybe I could call it Sample Saturday? Who knows!
- Sunday Movie: I LOVE movies so I’ll give you recommendations on this day.
Of course, there may be times when I feel like sharing something different but I’ll try to stick to this schedule.
Let me know what you think.
As always, thanks for stopping by and don’t forget to comment.
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Saturday, June 2, 2012
This weekend is moving weekend. There was a lot of soul searching and hard decisions made in May 2012. And although I am a bit nervous, I know that in the long run, a change is truly what I need and want. I will be updating on some personal stuff later but I want to be completely removed from the situation before I do.
I have some last minute items to purchase such as new comforters and will be doing that today. But I wanted to share with you the theme that I am playing around with for my new room.The walls of my new room are a pale yellow and I want it to be comfortable yet romantic but of course maintain an open and airy feel; especially in this sweltering heat! I won’t be able to buy everything that I want right away since I am on a tight budget but this may be the start of a new décor series on this blog.
So enjoy the pictures below. I’ve accumulated them from msn.com and google.com.
Happy June! It’s eighteen (18) days until the official start of summer (June 21st) and man is it SCORCHING here.
Again I did some random shopping. Which is really how I do it. I went on the Plazas to get a new pair of black pants for work and ended up with the following:
1. June 2012 Glamour Magazine. 2. June 2012 Prevention Magazine 3. Cute Gold Filled Bangles 4. Arm Candy 5. Island Dreams Candle by Banyan Creations 6. burton+Burton Mug 7. Blistex Medicated Berry Balm 8. Nail Polish Remover.
Thanks for stopping by! What random purchases have you made this week?